Today...

Today hasn't been a great day. I'm not sure why. I've been on the verge of tears all day. I've felt a heaviness, almost in a physical sense, that I cannot explain. No rhyme or reason to it at all really. Kendra and I have been on the outs this week, but yesterday we were fine, so it isn't that at all. I'm working this weekend, but I don't mind at all. I find that I'm more relaxed at work on the weekends. Not that I want to work every weekend, because I most certainly do not. It is nice to not have all of the "brass" around to muddy up everything though. I just like to be able to do my job unencumbered if that makes any sense at all.

The visit with my husband was nice, although it was not nearly long enough. I'm ready for him to come home for good. The comings and goings of my husband was taking a really bad toll on my kitty Axl, so we decided that it would be better to try and rehome him. It wasn't that hard to find him a home. One of the guys that I work with took him and he is thriving with his family. Axl really needs the stability of a family that isn't constantly moving and changing like ours is. The other two kitties could care less. They just go with the flow. It really hurt me to give Axl up. He was such a special kitty, but we had to do what was best for him. He is doing very well in his new home, and for that I am truly happy for HIM.

I'm trying to plan for the future, yet my future is unknown. I feel like I'm in a whirlwind and my grip on the storm door is slipping......