Next week is Christmas and for the first time in many years I will be going home. I have mixed feelings about it. The kids and I will be spending the holiday with my niece and her husband. I am very excited about that. What I am not looking forward to are the other memories that it will bring up. My mother lived down south and died New Years Eve 1993, and I lost her parents within 2 years of losing her. With their deaths, my family was basically torn apart. I haven't been to their graves since my grandmother died. I probably won't this time either.
My mother's birthday would have been this Thursday. She would have been 67. I look at other people that come through my life that are that age, and I try to imagine what she would have looked like. I look in the mirror and stand on my tippy toes, and I pretty much see her. She towered over me by about 5 inches, and she was much more classy than I am. Her hair was always done, make-up always perfect, and clothes always put together. I am the anti-"her" in that aspect. I've always lived on the fringe, been a bit different, never a conformist. We bumped heads in that aspect. Me with my t-shirt and jeans. She in her twin-sets and dress pants. Me with my scrubbed face, shorn hair, and sneakers. She with her make-up, hot rolled hair, and pumps. Even with our differences we loved each other.
If I live to be 67, I suppose I will know what she looks like. Everyone that sees me that HASN'T seen me in years bursts into tears telling me how much I look like her. (In miniature) So, I will be going home so to speak. It should prove to be interesting.
Friday, December 3, 2010
I'm feeling better about things now. My husband has made it safely to his destination. (Thank God) The Addison household is calming down and our routines are settling back in. The holiday schedule has come out at work and one of the girls at work asked if she could work Christmas Eve for me, and I jumped on that one. That just gives me more time with my children. The kids and I are heading down to my nieces for Christmas, and I think we are going to have a blast. I think I'm done with Christmas shopping, so my next project will be Zachery's birthday party in January. Skateboard themed. Should be a great time! I'm just glad that I am getting back to ME......:)
Posted by Geri at 9:50 AM