Thursday, September 10, 2009

He bought me socks.

Not the most romantic thing that has ever happened to me...or is it? I had been griping under my breath morning after morning, because it seems like no matter how many pairs of socks I buy for myself I can never find a pair when I need them. All of the laundry will be done, and my socks are gone...poof...which makes my already hectic mornings that much more hectic! Being that work is the ONLY place that I wear socks, I really don't think about them until I am getting ready for work which is why I was surprised when my husband came home looking VERY proud of himself one evening. He handed me a bag and said, "I bought you a present." He rarely just buys me stuff on a whim, so I was a bit surprised and a whole lot excited. I hugged him, kissed him, and opened the bag with great anticipation. "It's socks," he says and so it was. A bag with about 7 pair of socks in it was my present. I thanked him without much fervor secretly wishing it had been something a bit more exciting or romantic, and then it hit me like a ton of bricks! What could BE more romantic? He knew that I had a need, and without me asking he had fulfilled it. Shame washed over me for my ungratefulness, and I immediately hugged him with all of my strength. So many of us get hung up on what we WANT and not on what we NEED. We need someone to listen to us, anticipate our needs, and respond even to the unspoken ones. We need someone to buy us socks.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

What do you see when you look in the mirror?

I haven't posted here in a while. I suppose I've been a bit down in the dumps lately. I'm really not sure why. I try to post only positive things, but not every aspect of my life is a positive one. Big surprise there huh? I think too much. I KNOW this, yet I cannot stop the flow of thoughts that drift through my head. Drift may be a bit of a soft term for what goes on in my head. Maybe torrential is a more appropriate adjective to use. Whatever...I digress. So many thoughts fly through my head at an alarming rate I find it dizzying at times. I long for the days when decisions were made FOR me not BY me. Sometimes it would be wonderful to just DO and not have to THINK. My brain needs a vacation from ME. I am my own worst enemy, so what am I doing to those around me? I apologize like always. I am perpetually sorry. I don't like what I see.