Nerves Ma'am? Why Yes. I'll Have a Whole Case....

Well, tomorrow is the day my husband will be returning home. I have been waiting for this day for a whole year, yet I am oddly trepiditious. A year is a long time, and a whole lot can change in a year's time. Plus, we have so much to do in the next couple of weeks with the buying of the new house and moving. Although we talk on the phone frequently it will almost be like meeting in person again for the first time. Will he like what I am wearing? Will he like what I've done with my hair? Will he like the fact that I've traded in my glasses for contacts? Weird I know, but as I said, a lot can change in a year.

Sooo, I've been trying to clean house today, which isn't going so well since yesterday at the new house I slipped and fell. I discovered immediately that I am WAY too old to be falling in any manner, and I woke this morning feeling as if I had been beaten during my sleep. Oh well, in every life some bodies will fall. LOL

I think I'll eat a sandwich. Then I will commence cleaning the house bent over like an old Crone....Life is Good!

Nuttin' but Good News!

We FINALLY closed on our house yesterday and not a moment too soon! After doing the Chase dance for nearly 2 months my legs were tired, my temper was gone with the wind, and I was ready to "tear the club up, " but I made it through that awful nightmare. Kendra and I have done quite a bit of work on the house already which is a perk when your parents own the house you are buying. LOL. I will have to post pictures when I get the camera back. Kendra has taken the camera to the "Puddin' Creek Mud Bog" which by the way, is my idea of hell on earth. We have all of the before pictures, but we are still working on the "after" work and pictures.

The next bit of good news is that my husband is coming home this week coming up! Yay! \o/ He has been state side for almost a week now, and I am ready for him to be home with me!!

Anyway, it all seems to be coming together. I'm looking forward to new adventures!! BRING IT!!

Why Do People Tell Me I Can't Do Something??

Maybe it is the rebel in me. Maybe it is because I am hard headed. I don't know. I abide by the rules most of the time. I am a bit of a non conformist. I am NOT the typical "soccer mom" though. I have funky hair, my nose is pierced, and I cuss more than most. So, when I got an email from my loan officer emailed me this morning and told me that we "can't" close on Friday, because the underwriters would need extra time to go through all of the paperwork that the JUST asked for on Saturday, which I GOT TO THEM ON SATURDAY I was PISSED! I have done my part, they are getting MY MONEY, THEY are wasting MY time, THEY need to make it happen! END OF STORY! Don't tell me we CAN'T when we CAN!

At The End of my Rope...

...and it is fraying. The roller coaster that is house buying is quickly becoming too much for me to handle. We are less than a week from closing, and I get a call from the mortgage broker with MORE conditions! I have had a less than a one day turn around on EVERY item they have asked me for, and today was no exception with the things that I could accomplish. NOW, they are saying that they don't have a current VA eligibility form for my husband. THIS is something they have had WEEKS to tell me. I am so frustrated! I am functioning today on VERY little sleep, because Zac was up several times during the night with his asthma and now this crap that could have been taken care of a LONG time ago.

SO, I had to email my husband to see if he can get the paperwork done, so the STUPID VA can proceed even though our loan has already been approved. Hopefully he can. If not, no house. I'm tired emotional and physically. I have been doing this alone with my husband being overseas. I've been working, running a household, and trying to be there for my children. I can't do anymore. I am officially DONE. I'm letting go of the rope.

I'm SO Ready!

I've got about a million things running through my head right now. 
I'm Ready for my husband to get home.
I'm Ready to close on our house.
I'm Ready to have some time off from work.
I'm Ready to get on with my life.
I'm Ready to see what new adventures life has in store.

I'm NOT Ready to leave Kendra to finish school.
I'm NOT Ready for her to start college.
I AM Ready for her to see what new adventures life has in store.
 

Today's Rant!!

I started to post on facebook, but I thought it would come out whiny, which is actually what I want to do. LOL. WHINE....A LOT! People have a CHOICE to read my blog, but if I put it on facebook, if they are my friends they pretty much HAVE to read it. LOL So, here I go!

I am physically and emotionally exhausted! Trying to get everything done for this mortgage is driving me absolutely batty. They still haven't been able to inspect the septic tank. My Dad has forbade me to go and dismantle the deck. He says he is going to get someone to do it, and all I can see is time ticking away. It is driving me CRAZY(er)!!! 

We still haven't heard back from the appraisal yet everyone tells me not to worry. I am sick of people telling me not to worry when we are supposed to close in less than three weeks!!!!! At this point I am one big bundle of WORRY!!

THEN, I wake up this morning to a voice mail from a friend who hasn't initiated a conversation with me in WEEKS and it says, "I have NEVER not answered a phone call from you. That is just plain RUDE." Well, excuse the FUCK out of me! You do NOT have a monopoly on problems!! #1)My phone was turned down, because I forgot to turn it back up when I got home from WORK. #2) I WAS IN BED IN A COMA #3) Try calling me during the day when I haven't been working like a fucking slave for 12 hours a day for the past 3 days!!!

END OF RANT

Cool Change....

I am loving these Fall mornings. Even though the days are still getting quite warm, the morning feels like a taste of heaven. Fall is my favorite season. The smell of drying leaves, the crunch of those leaves beneath my feet, and my most favorite of all the colors!

With this coming Fall there are more than seasonal changes coming. Hopefully, my family and I will be moving into a new home. Well, not a new home, it was my Grandparent's home, but we are buying it. I am hoping my family is ready for the changes we will be making in it. Right now it is very outdated and "vanilla." I plan on infusing it with color and LIFE.

My Grandfather died when I was 4 years old. He was a big man both in stature and personality. He was kind and loving, and even though he died when I was very young I still remember that about him. My Grandmother died last year. She was bitter and hateful. Basically, she sucked every bit of joy from any occasion. She chose her favorites, and she made damn sure that those that weren't knew it. Of course, I wasn't a favorite not even close. Never was. Not even as a very small child.

ANYWAY, we are buying HER house. It is a beautiful home that she and my Grandfather bought together. She and her abusive second husband lived in it until she died last year. He went into a nursing home. My family will bring back the love and life that the house had before my Grandfather passed away, and make it into the loving and warm home that it should be.

Times they are a changin'.....For the better!!! I certainly do love Fall.....